Saturday, September 30, 2006
I'm happy, thanks be to God.
I would like to use this 100th post to announce to the whole Internet that, for the first time since I cannot remember, I feel happy. There is no reason for it; it is simply there, and it is the most wonderful feeling I have probably ever had, even though it is less intense than other pleasant feelings. A smile right now is not an effort; the thought of bad liturgies no longer bothers me; I don't have any dread of the next day. I know it's real because I have not had much caffeine. And God, if this is only a short reprieve--a retreat before things return to their ordinary place--then I just thank you for letting me have this feeling, right now. And I pray that others may have it too, sometimes.